across the horizon, the rise of love, drowned by tears.

It's a cycle that i want to get rid of asap.
Having to face the pressure of mst, burying myself in the world of notes, indirectly resulting in insomia, capsizing of mood.

mst is the last thing i wished to talk about. i can foresee how atrocious my result will be. They say efforts will be paid off- i beg to differ. One aft another obstacles faced, i started questioning myself if i'd made a wise choice in choosing this popular-in-demand course. No doubt that i prefer the poly path cos i never had the idea of entering college. With all these thoughts running in my mind, i get despair& dishearten. i realised i should have planned carefully, the life i want to lead.

i couldn't say that i regretted entering this course, cos the stuffs do interest me. What's more when it promises good future prospects. i just abhor the image the sch portray us as, the mindset in others like as if everyone in this course are genius, the things they expect us to know & the true faces of people. those are nonsensical.

i want a poly life that is enjoyable, not to let these useless facts affect me. i will gain back the motivation to be a dilligent girl since procrastinating wouldn't do much help. Nonetheless, i will learn not to pressurise myself due to the competitiveness of coursemates. I only want to achieve standards i set for me by myself, not by others.


the hellish mst is left with a final tbr. i am giving myself a last chance to push the blame to my laziness. At least i can say that the root of doing so badly is not putting in any effort, not of my incapability.

Good luck to myself & jiayou zzb!:)



aftermath of mst: i want a real good sleep & massive retail therapy (b4 1st july!)

alone all along in the battle field.

Happy Birthday woman!
Get sexayy in the thoughtful gift from me &js.
with loads of love <3


(p.s. i realised i cldnt find any recent photo of urs & resorted to getting one from ur frenster! time for a gathering & snapsnapsnap (:)

up above the surfaces, deep down it's engraved.

1). i missed out a super impt note from the previous post. we met a hunk (better known as 九楼 guy) on the way to the train station from pn2's house. some one shld film down all our reactions, i think it's uber funny. more proj meetings at pn2's please. haha

2). the dreaded (by me) hotel trip turned out fab! Mr Michael Wo & Mr Tony were 2 hilarious professional in the hotel operations who got the -5 angels- entertained! headed down to town for dinner at the hk cafe. crazy camwhoring sessions, relaxing day with zzb:)
p.s. chenchen, the mango mountain dessert thing is super freezing nice! im sure u'll love it.

3). father's day celeb at home on sat. the lovely daughters of my dad took great effort in preparing dinner. hahha, a not-so-good attempt from the expression of xq. yes, i cooked the rice & added a lil too much water. i like nua-nua rice okay. who cares if the food isn't too tasty? my father's happy and we succeeded.

4). my beloved beloved will be holding his concert in singapore in oct/nov. sq promised to get his tix for me as my bdae prezzie (i requested actually). i am, extremly looking forward to his first concert in singapore. i am, extremly excited! SCREAMSS

like the saying says, like my mind shuts u away.

just like i do, i believed pple enjoy reading blogs with pictures instead of having millions of alphabets dancing in front of you.

trip to sentosa few days back to carry out our site-inspection (if u believe it) for MICE proj. of cos we aren't that sadist to only do serious work, self-interest/entertainment is impt too! im hoping to revisit to get myself tanned, like tavia yeung. SO HOT & SEXAYY isn't it? haha

RQ's advance bday celebration was held at OCC ytd. the chalet was cool, food was fab, her relatives are "wow, so many of them", her lil sis is so so so cute. i am dreaming of some bday birthday like hers in sept too. how nice can that be?

jogging early this morning with my prettaye mate. oh, we want to keep fit & healthy unlike those 2s. feels good to sweat it out & i smell like shit(!!sq) after the workout. following that was proj meeting which like another other time, became our gathering session. But no worries, cos we few smart souls are productive workers, yeah?

May tmr's trip goes smoothly:)

on a random note, ive yet to start mugging. yes, no, i have not started revison. typical of me to whine about my indiscipline & lack of motivation before the actual exams. But i really think it's getting worse? Slap me hard, someone.

spade of the heart, queen of my heart.

SHOW ON STAGE

beautiful reminiscent forming pieces of puzzles.

Hello 美女们, it has been a while since we last hang out tgt.

sometimes, effort uve put in dont get paid off. they just go down the drain, yet you cant whine a single shit in front of others. why don't i see that happening to others? All it seemed is that they were enjoying themselves very much, being productive with juicy ideas. the thought of these will only make myself more depressed.
sometimes, somethings just sucks, especially at this every moment.


i feel like screaming, but no one will hear.

walking down the memory lane, listening to old tunes.

there are days where you feel less inclined to blog and yes, today included. a sudden plunge of mood, destroying motivation(if any) to do anything. the thought of numerous un-done projects, conflicts among whoever, mst, etc is capsizing my emotion. Oh wells, im glad random chats with old pal, usual nonsensical talks w/ zzb did salvage my night.

school has become smth i dont look forward to- the boredom, the pretense, the workload, the lecturer. 2 wks term break has finally commenced but i cant sense the real meaning of 'taking a break'. despite all, friday being the last day of sch marked an enjoyable end to the term. small chats amongst us break into laughters with srz being the usual entertainer & the laughing/copying lecture by the well-loved-by-all-students blaw lecturer .

called off the date with sis, because of the last few episodes of the hk drama which are to be delivered to us that friday. Heart of Greed- a superb serial i can say. even yan who has no tinge of interest in hk drama got addicted to it! Moreover, watching the drama is something so pleasant to the eyes simply becos wcc's in it! double thumbs up!!


thoughts seemed to flow and amazingly, ive much to pen down. saturday was the enjoying of home love the entire day- catching up with entertainment stuffs, discovering functions of picasa, having fun w/ photoshop. a relax kind of life that will b enough only for a day.

Sunday was the fun part. we(cuzzie & i) headed to Kunion for 林宇中's event. Not like we were fans of his (a story behind which im lazy to explain), but we still decided to take a look. The crowd turned out as what we expected (erm, no hard feelings to his fans), so we sat in and yeah, i think he's a great singer. He's a real nice person who crack jokes to spice up the atmosphere. His songs are so soothing tht i started listening to them so frequently now. Overall, another nice experience 'chasing celebs' with bestcrazy partner! we're both looking foward to our dearest's concert to be held in singapore(:(:(:

shall post some pictures the next time round.
on the random note, i love kissing my mum! hehheh :D

drifting away from the crowd, futile holding back.

it has been a struggle. things weren't supposed to proceed on this way, but it really wasn't up to us. we tried to compromise, though whining under the desks at times. i guessed no one cant still tolerate any further. workloads are piling up, level of stress overflown, unhappiness kept within incident aft incident, which is snowballing into a fierce storm.

what are we supposed to do? what else can we do? Please do enlighten us. i hate this kind of situations, it makes the world seem darker.

I won't forget that my mission to be on this planet, is to be happy.

I will not get affected, it is not worth to get affected. :):):)

break away from dark clouds that blind the rainbow, pictures on the go!

DTRM o1 :)

we rocks!

m^3

Would you be there, always be there.

like a wobbler, i almost couldn't survive walking out of the- toilet.

loathesome cramps and diarrhoea disrupting my aldy-pathetic hours of slp.

lessons at 10am later on, & ive much of the thought of not turning up.

luckily im meeting sukie, so i'l force myself to go and be a good sch girl.

i finally found the song i like on imeen=) listening to it jus makes u so sad. so it'll b another soothing song on my fave list loves!<3

If I were blue, would you be there for me,

And whisper in my ears that's okay,

Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,

And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,

And touch my lips with tender love and care

Would you die for me, would you run with me,

And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you'll always be the one,

to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you'll always be the one,

to take my breath away?

Would you be there

If I were grey, would you still think of me?

And wish that you could hold me now, (hold me now)

Would you die for me?

Would you run with me?

All the way…

Would you be there to love, to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you’ll always be the one,

to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you’ll always be there,

to kiss my pain away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you’ll always be the one,

to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you’ll always be there,

to kiss my pain away?

Would you be there…for me…

drowned in the pool of red hotness!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

Rigel!

=)=)=)

p.s. pickle fickle me changed my template again. hehheh

it's amazing how, in the crowds, we met.

This whole post will be dedicated to zzb:

(Schwein-gy Verein is a much classy name hah!)

i just wanted to join in the fun of posting some pictures which say billion words.

i am very sure i'll get huge reactions from everyone of them but just for the fun of it! Go on and post all my unglam pics, i'l still look pretty no matter what (*laughs).

i know pn2 hearts me so so much. zzb feel so uneasy without my presence. that is why they aren't surviving well for mice proj. see lah, ostrasize me, kick me out of the clique lah. BOOO!

so funny when pn2 texted me smth like this "w/o u we feel weird".

Don worry. i still love you all <3 haha=)

im proud of this creation

2 unglam kids while doing proj

her face is too small, tht's why so hard to fit in nicely!

she claims her singing sux, but i like her voice.

too bad she likes too slp so much!

sf got influenced, but a lil more ugly.

presenting pn1&2!! *drumrolls*

she decides to fight w/ sf in the 'fairest skin contest'

no idea wad to put for caption?

a similar expression when we mention abt helmet!

she has a fetish for chicky:D

pretty gals haf tired days too

sf: tmd, wna fight issit?

her hometown is pakistan

pls ask sq wad she is tryin to do

caught in action

she wans to haf eyes of shuqi

sf w/ the same kiam pa look;

mavis trying hard to fit in;

rz's face too big:D

dont u think it's so cute??

:):):):):):):):):):):):)