so, you won't know why?

Feels like I'm walking in the rain, I find myself trying to wash away the pain.
& It's this feeling I get when blue skies turned to gray.


There are times when you feel nothing is going your way.
It is always when everyone is busy with their own stuff, am all alone cornered by the four walls. Not a single shit to spice up my life and routine is the word. I hate routines. I find myself like a useless thing on earth, waking up every morning, slack around and wait for time to pass. These are times where so much so i wanna get outta the nest, but i just feel so helpless like the patients almost 6 feet down.

Perhaps it is the insecurity i am feeling, the insecurity you are giving me.
I find myself so darn foolish, doing things I've never done before. Tears rolled down that night when all else are asleep, but you're the one who got me pacified. Nobody knows, you don't know and never. The day, I woke up & find myself crying hard like never before. i dreamt about my closest leaving this world, i dreamt bout everyone leaving. I am all alone, once again. But the simplest you did save the day.



People said, some things are better left untold.

But others?

Maybe,

No one asked.

It's because I don't speak, i keep everything inside. i couldn't bring myself to say all that i wanted to.

Unspoken, Unsaid, Unaware of.


I need a job to keep myself occupied and not coped myself at home, letting all the unnecessary thoughts lead my mind astray.