doing too well that grips jealousy, really.

very wrong.
But still, Merry X'mas.

why are things always at th two extremes?
up in the moon/almost there in hell

Get back to where we started from, or rather where things never started.

It has always to be when silence crept into the four walls, the faded memories recognises the good times. Rewind to the very primitive of strangers stealing glances over card games, the silly flurry over the debut of white angel, the abrupt dispassion for uncharted reasons. Then comes an item happily in love embrace, marking an end to moments of pretendence. Everything was seemingly good 6 feet below. Too prefect to be true, love scatters and hopped on the wrong track. Typical to be taken aback, but fell into the trap anyway right away. It was way too much like a heaven that is off one's reach. The spell of one trip proved them all. Nothing's gonna work out fine, the feeling wasn't right. Codes turned meaningless and obsolete just in a blink. All left now was a distant 2-word text, the lonely avenue that once led to heaven's door, a familiar shadow dissolving into the corner of a road and unbearable days with shunning glances. Flashback like these are sealed in there, to lead me back. Of cos, in the end it's actions not words that truly matter. Grant me my wish, Santa. I am not asking for much, am I?

xoxo,
Merry X'mas to you

the shortest yet the sweetest

Dear Diary, I am Little Miss Happy!

My short enthusiasm and energy span has deterred me to continue with those episodes I've laid down previously. So basically, I'd quite massive shopping trips ever since the self-declared break on friday. Saturday there was this SHOW YOUR DANCE dance competition going on @ MS in the honour presence of Mr S. It's quite a pity not to be there to witness the live performances (Miss T & I hiked the shops of MS to catch the many ongoing great sales=) since we can get no good view) because I thought the winning team was good. W.A.Z. or smth, got the power eh. That definitely triggered my hidden yearning to learn hip-hop! Yes, & I am going to take up this new challenge real soon. Sense my excitement woohooo:)

Monday there was a change of plan to ECP with Miss W. Pulau Ubin has been postponed to the 2 months vacation. There was a series of unforeseen circumstances (hahahh!) and we cycled 1/6 of the cash we paid. Nevertheless, it was still nice company & good time. I find myself doing relatively good, bracing up to be at the place once worth a fraction of the memories. No matter, still masked. We went Prints afterwards & saw Mr J working. I regretted not buying Donut Factory then cos I feel like so now. Slurps!

For the next couple of days, I forced myself to stay home. My theory Q (& has been proven) is that going out= casting away money. My expenditure is frightening. I realised I haf brand new apparels hung in my wardrobe and I am constantly adding to its collection. FYI, my wardrobe is at the verge of exploding. HAHAHA time for new wardrobe! Miss Ariel H, there's one at Ikea @ $55 only which caught my eyes. Get my hint:P

Oh, I played badminton with Miss T too which explains the aches I'm having. Today we finally get cracking on projects but I find it more like a catching-up session=) Threesome left for town & x'mas lightings are pretty! Told ya my theory Q is damn true. The dollar notes escaped one by one out of my lovely Guess case. Money is exchangeable for happiness in this case. Company was best also because for no reason, we were so high that even PJ whom we coincidentally met realised.

It's wee hours alr. The last time I stayed up so late was for rushing of GOM. I am supposed to hit the bank tmr morning to settle the Go Card, Capital Card and perhaps create a UOB a/c or apply for CitiBank Clear Card. This links back to the issue of the depletion of my savings account. HAHAHA don't ask me out for shopping please. Getting CNY items are exceptions!


& btw, everyone is infected with the flu bug. Mummy's down with heavy flu/cough and i think ah pa caught it too, Miss KKT & Kopi See also. Why not me? I am not sick to want to be sick. I am just wondering if my immune system is really that strong. Theory Q2 states that sick= no appetite= a good chance to lose weight!


Pictography up the next time round:)

o seven o eight, the same exact place.

Saturday @ MS. The shopping spree continues!
Episode 4 to be updated=)

The least I'm asking for is a word from you.

Episode 3

Friday is a self-declared holiday. This is the day=)
Don't worry. We are not those sorts who will queue from morning jus to be in front. We had our lunch @ subway, shopped around before joining the queue. I am so happy, because I've got many new buys=)

but do you know it ain't that easy?

Episode 2

I did mention bout my unkempt hair & how I couldn't stand it. So at last there's time for me to do smth bout it. Thursday after the SQ talk, I hopped on the train to D'Hair Boutique @ Bugis to have my haircut. Vicky is nice and I am going back there again to dye/highlight my hair soon. It's shorter than I expected but nevermind, it'll grow fast. I love bangs but I swipe my fringe to the side. I like the new hairstyle cos it's way better than the disgusting one before.
Yan joined me after work and we were both hungry by then. We bought bread from fourleaves, the XL Korean chicken cutlet thingy, some donut factory-lookalike doughstick- all from basement of Bugis Junction. There's sooooo many mouthwatering vittles there. Soup spoon included!
Shopping makes me happy. GUESS? (ugh, I couldn't resist the sales there were having, & got myself a Guess wallet I don't need. hahaha)

you are in the faraway land, merry merry.

Episode 1

Last tuesday/wednesday was exciting & cool. First, it was a historical moment worth mentioning. The whole of dtrm01 (at least those in my list of contacts) were online at unearthly hour like 3/4am. Well i bet it applied to some others in the cohort too. Everyone was slogging like mad for GOM report due wed, 4pm.
Yes and here comes the second exhilarating moment. At 3.35pm we were still at wm's- printing the report, crazily slotting figures for the budget & finally off in a cab to SB. HAH, i think we made the driver as nervous too. We made it at 3.55pm! Thereafter, i waited for rz's group to finish printing their appendices & join them for munching at fc6. They shared their exciting night at hl's place with the ydr, pj's give me 10 more min, brandon's snore & so on. We laughed till everyone stared at us when we leave and fell dead asleep on the train. I never know sleep can be that heavenly till that night=)

strolling down the memory lane, nothing remains.

1). I never bully my mummy ok? I was just a lil pissed tht she didn't want to buy me fish burger because of Mahjong. A hungry man is an angry man. But she bought it for me anyway :)
2). I shared fan-choi with mummy half past midnight aft I returned from sf's because we were both hungryyy.
3). I camped inside my sis room since she's away cruising happily.
4). I continued the GBE battle aft hibernating for 4hrs or so.
5). I went for grocery shopping with mummy.
6). We had breakfast and I feel like a pig.
7). I saw yanni working & shit, she saw the me that looks 100% auntie carrying many grocery bags.
8). It's always interesting to go to the wet market with mummy once in a while (minus those squeezing & smell of meat/fish)
9). The butcher (oh i hadn't use this word for so long), not very old one, offer me sweet. Mind him, I am EIGHTEEN not 8. Very kind thou' HAHAHA.
10). I found my Vitasoy Chocolate :) at Prime and mummy bought honeydew's to give it a try.
11). I can't wait to snip off my hair, or just do smth about it. It's freaking disgusting.
12). Yeah 2 weeks holidays are arriving. Finally I can meet rq & leejj, go out with cousins & sis, execute our pubbing/clubbing plans, shop despite my tight budget, have a proper good sleep.
13). I just spotted a spider on the desktop monitor. Yucks!

oseven, that was 1/3 of a year.

Happily Ever After =)

We're left with 3 more to go next week, very rushed very packed very stress. Global Business Environment is not my forte, not that other modules are. It's a matter of general knowledge & analyzing which obviously I can't excel. I scratches my head when I looked at those figures and charts, and decided to log in to my abandoned FaceBook. I tried to research but the contents are unable to catch my attention, and decided to work on Casino staffing. In e end I decided to finish the final bit of my book. I just dread doing this. HAHA I will go back to reality after blogging.


There comes a second part. You spoke and said you were true. You left and said you gave your best and that was the last time I hear from you. Soon we know there's a goodbye.
-xxxx

You won't be anywhere. I am over you. I have to remember this. Maybe I'll write it on my hand. (Along the stairway, along the stalls,) your dark eyes meet me I feel all the old hurt rushing back into my chest. (Well, especially when you decided you should hide the glance right away.) Don't react. Closure. New life. (But that wasn't the best kept secret anymore.) Fine, I'm left all alone in the corner.
-kinsella

I love that red shirt of yours.

This is a my current adoration- Vitasoy chocolate. It always selling fast at the canteen's drink stall, or probably because they don't stock up much. I pestered mummy to buy for me & finally she did but it's only available in smaller packaging. It's cute! HAHA=)


The other day, they were saying a lifestyle like ours with a busy schedule is also a type of bliss. Like what I read in a book today, It's the way you see things. (oh yar, that's the 2nd hand book my sis bought. It's damn interesting/funny & I'm 1/4 thru it only.) But seriously, deprived of sleep screwed my internal self.


I duno what I want either. Initially at the constant sight of you, I feel uneasy because I pretty much guessed I couldn't handle or would rather fumble. Right down, this chance is gone. The search for you in the sea of crowd turns futile. You are like a complete stranger. Strangers are not supposed to have any impact on your life. All left to do was to reminisce, especially when anything or everything reminds me of the codes we shared. There isn't much time. sixo to be exact.


I feel darn useless.

same thought, so much of jealousy.

We decided to take a half day off for both Friday & Saturday. ZZB headed down to bugis for massive shopping after ttp lecture yesterday because we know we wont have the time do get anything on our shopping list if we dont grab this chance. So we got some jeans, tees, bag, shoes=) That obviously isn't satisfying enough right?

Reached home a little while before clocks struck twelve which marks csf's 21. Got up early this morning to cough out UCCD report before heading to her house for steamboat. Happy Birthday! It was great, teasing weiming & everything- the cake, food, ben&jerry & the company. But argh, it's back to slogging right down that I'm still at her place (with srz hibernating on/off beside me). Sis/cuzzie are meeting 12.30pm at laodifang later and the darn projects are deterring me from going. How can that be?

I should seriously start feeding on grasses alr my dear friends.